Thursday, July 17, 2014

The Ghost

Tonight I ran into a ghost of SL. He was a ghost from my past. I didn't acknowledge him, nor did  he acknowledge me. For you see, he's invisible to me and will stay that way. They say that ghosts can haunt you. My hope is that I am a ghost to him too and that I can haunt him forever. I hope he's haunted by what could have been. I hope he's haunted by his inability to forgive and accept human frailty and insecurities.

He does not haunt me. I know what he missed out on and that he's a fool.


Wednesday, July 2, 2014

Just One More Try

Ever just love a song to death? You could hear it over and over and over and love it even more than the previous time. This isn't a current song, but I love it to death.

One More Try by George Michaels

"Now, I think it's time
that you let me know.
So if you love me, say you love me.
But if you don't, just let me go."

"So I don't want to learn to hold you,
touch you, think that you're mine..."

"Baby, just one more try"

So I'm back on Second Life after a nice long break to give it one more try. Being on Second Life can be like feeling the words of this song over and over when you find the right person to sing it to you. It's those feelings  that keep many  people on Second Life. Just let yourself go to really experience it.

Sunday, April 6, 2014

Making SL a Learning Experience

I've been on Second Life seven years which is way too long. I realize it almost every time I log on. So why do I continue to stay on Second Life? I think being a teacher that I look at  Second Life as a learning experience. I've learned a lot about myself in Second Life, mostly I've learned about my weaknesses. Learning about yourself is a good thing, but only if you use the information to make yourself a better person in both lifes.

Some of the things I've learned on  Second Life:

True friends don't care if you're not perfect. They know your weaknesses and accept you for who you are. They help you when you're down and support you, rather than trying to bring you down even more. Being a true friend is doing the same things back to them in return.

I'm overly sensitive and get hurt way too easily. I tend to lash out in return when someone hurts me. What I've learned is that most of the time, it really wasn't the person's intention to hurt  me.  I take things that people say too personally and let it hurt me too deeply. Most of the time, it's just a random comment someone makes without really thinking about what they're saying. What I'm trying to learn to do when that happens is to talk to them and ask them what they meant by that and tell them how I took it while giving them a chance to explain before I say something hurtful back at them. This is probably the hardest thing for me to "fix" about myself since it's my worst fault.

Anyone who really "cares" about you as a person will not play with your emotions or use you in any life. Someone that  really "cares" about you cannot just let you go from their life without listening to you, trying to understand how you feel, working to make things better, and fighting for you. You have to do the same in return or there is no caring relationship no matter how much you might want there to be one. I need to get better at recognizing the people who are on Second Life who do really care about people from those who are here just on Second Life to "play a game" with people. I need to not be sad when someone like that leaves my Second Life because they were truly never in my life to begin with despite my hopes that they were someone who truly cared.

People who can't forgive others are very sad people because they're probably unable to forgive themselves. Forgive those who apologize, life is too short to hold grudges or to feel that you're in some way superior over someone else that makes a mistake.
"nothing can save you except writing. it keeps the walls from failing.”
Charles Bukowski

If you've read this far, thank you for wanting to learn with me.


Monday, March 31, 2014

Love this dress from Flowerdream Creations

I don't fashion blog much but I had to blog this dress from Flowerdream Creations. This dress is called Christina and is available in blue and pink at the main store and in silver and light green at her satellite store. The best thing about this dress is the price. It's only 55L for 55L Thursdays. It is still available at this price for a few more days so hurry to get it.

The dress is available in standard mesh sizing so make sure you try the demo first. It is mesh with some added prims. The detail is beautiful. The material is that sparkly material that shimmers as you move. Here's a few pictures so you can see the details. This is the pink dress but it's hard to tell that in my pictures. I wish you could see the color of the dress but my windlight setting didn't let the beautiful material shine through.

Full view - both sides have slits showing legs
Back view - low cut with thin straps coming to a v at a jewel

Low cut front - strap at side
Taken at Venezia, Italy in SL
Hair:  Diva Rena
Shoes: Gos Mirror
Dress: Flowerdream Creations

Wednesday, February 19, 2014


My best friend has lung cancer, brain tumors, and now they've told her she has bone cancer too. Yet, she still comes to work and stays as long as she can each day. We work at the same place.  She doesn't want me to come up to her office or call her while she's at work because she knows she'll cry when she sees me. She doesn't want to cry at work.

I stay in my office too, but I cry a lot thinking about her and what she's going through. I think it's comforting to her to know I'm here one floor below her in  case she really needs me. She calls herself a whimp. I call her courageous.

Every little thing in my life suddenly has more meaning. I find myself treasuring every moment and appreciating all the little things that I never used to think about before. I try not to think about the future, but to really live in the present. I wish I knew what to say to comfort her in some way, but the words don't come to me easily anymore. Writing in this blog helps me to gather my thoughts. Forgive me as my blog becomes a mixture of real life and Second Life musings for a while as I try to figure this real world out.

Monday, February 17, 2014

Second Life Photography

Lately one of my favorite ways to pass the time has been taking pictures on Second Life. Sometimes I find a sim or a scene on a sim that just strikes me as beautiful. Other times I just see something funny or try to take a picture to create a story for a blog post.

I never realized what wonderful pictures Second Life residents were taking before I started to explore learning  about Second Life photography. I've been here seven years but to me taking a picture was just hitting the Snapshot button at the bottom of my screen. I usually just took pictures of friends and never thought much about how I took the picture.

On Firestorm, go to World then Photo and Video and choose Photo Tools. In the center are options to change the sky (lighting) and water. Play around with those and see how different a picture you can get of the same scene.

I took the following pictures of a scene at the Happy Mood sim owned by Sasaya.Kayo. Look at the difference between the following pictures just by changing my Windlight sky settings. To change the Windlight sky just click on the drop down arrow to the right  and choose from the list. You can do the same with the water settings etc. or you can make your own setting which I haven't quite mastered yet.

None of the following pictures have been photoshopped  in any way. I do like to take my pictures into Photoshop and crop them and save them in a jpeg setting vs. the png setting which SL saves the pictures. This saves disk  space and helps your pictures load faster if you're using them on a web page. I'm learning how to do a few more things on Photoshop, but I'm not very good yet.

I can't tell you what Windlight settings I used for  these pictures. I just play around with different ones till I find something I like. For more detailed information on taking SL photography, go to this blog post by Strawberry Singh Strawberry Singh snapshot tutorial . Check out her other fantastic tutorials while you're there.

Original at Midday

A touch of silver added

A touch of pink

Used the Windlight Region settings
After I choose the one I like best which usually takes me a long time, I upload it to my Flickr and post it in some of the SL photography groups on Flickr. Here are some of my favorite SL photographers' Flickrs if you want to see some of the amazing pictures SL residents are taking. There are many more deserving photographers that should be on this list, but I wanted to give you a sampling of a few SL photographers that inspire me to learn how to take better pictures.

Neva Crystall-Blessed Flickr
Logan McMahn Flickr
Arol Lightfoot Flickr
JourneyM Flickr
SunnyGeorge Flickr
Skip Staheli Flickr

Wednesday, February 12, 2014


I heard some very bad news today. My best friend since third grade is sick...very sick. She had a cough since January that wouldn't go away so she went to her family doctor. The doctor did an x-ray which showed a spot on her lung. She had a CT scan which showed a brain tumor, four tumors on her neck, lung cancer, and a spot on her liver. She says she feels fine. She just has a cough.

Her family is devastated. I am devastated. In a second, your whole world and life as you know it can change. It kind of makes you want to go back and rethink your life. To no longer worry about the silly stuff that doesn't really matter. To change the stupid things you've done or said to others out of innocent ignorance. If we could only have a new perspective on our life before it's too late to matter.